Warp Speed Ahead...
Life is all about moments and every second that passes is another moment cherished or gone forever. In those moments you are continuously faced with decisions and the choices you make in every split second navigates your path, your journey. Sometimes you make rash decisions by being pressured, or you make harsh decisions during fits of anger and more times than not you end up regretting them later. The only person that can make the right decisions for you is you. This is your life, after all you only get one. Follow your heart, stay true to yourself and if you have to make someone wait for a decision, then make them wait. They are not going to be the one losing sleep tonight when you are lying in bed hating yourself.
People always seem to be in a hurry to get nowhere, or always running from something. You can run all you want, but the truth is that if you are running it better be for all the right reasons because if you are running for the wrong ones, well, you cannot outrun your demons. Unfortunately they haunt you no matter where you go. Of course you can shake your head and say not me, I don't have any demons. Sorry but I call bullshit! You may be lucky enough to be one of the seldom few that does not have at least one yet, but reality is we are all sinners. It doesn’t matter how righteous or holier than thou you think that you are, you may make it through today unscaled, but tomorrow is a new day with brand new chances to make a mess of things.
For example, think of those few people seeking justice that walked into a courtroom and just unloaded rounds into their attacker, or the sick monster that molested their child. How about the few that work themselves to the bone while being deprived of an adequate nights sleep suddenly faced with the split second decision to meet up with a friend or even some coworkers for drinks after work, only after allowing themselves to unwind a bit their already heavy eyes close behind the wheel. There had been no plans of the aftermath, but in a moment of weakness they made an error in judgment from the unforeseen hand that life had dealt them. If you are one of those people who carry around that little voice in your head assuring you that it can never happen to you, well I hate to burst your bubbles luvs… it can. Expect the unexpected and never let your guard down.
Nobody has all the answers and nobody is perfect, everyone makes mistakes, myself included. I try to make decisions based on feelings. You know when something feels all wrong, or something feels off, and I am sure you all know what I mean when I say that. You have moments where you are overwhelmed by a feeling that this couldn’t feel more right. It may turn out to be a mistake later on, or a wrong decision all together. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and that people and places are put into your life when and where they are meant to be. So, because I took the time to follow my heart, be led by a feeling and truly had the best of intentions in that moment, I regret things less and learn from them more.
The OCD makes me very detail oriented, and my thoughts can be way outside the box since everything is about detail. My OCD is not severe, I mean I don’t have to touch the door knob four times, spin around twelve, curtsy twice and stand on my head before I do something, but I still can’t just do it, my mind maps out a entire plan in my head. For example, you grab your keys and run out the door to go to the store. In less than a minute my mind has already mapped out grabbing keys, out the door, in the car, got my phone, what if the car breaks down, make sure the stove is off, check again to make sure the stove is off, departure to safe return is all planned in my head. There is no thought, no effort, no trying, it just happens and yes sometimes it can be aggravating but this is also what fuels my outlook on life and seeing the bigger picture of things. Of course I am not delusional, I do know that certain situations may present themselves that demand a no time for thinking, it is now or never decision making since the world today has become a more unpredictable place.
Life has made me see the world differently than I did ten years ago. I do not in any way try to preach to anyone, or tell someone you have to do it this way and do it now. But, I cannot tell you how many times I have said something, or explained something the way I see it, and somebody says wow I never thought of it like that. So I simply try to be a positive beacon of light in a cold dark world. I want to show people how to think outside of the box. How to see a different view of a situation they may have not seen otherwise. Remind people that just because the world is getting worse, there are still good people. But most of all, you all have seen me remind you many, many times to just take time to stop and smell the roses. It is not selfish to take a moment for yourself and just breathe.
The hard truth is that lately life seems to be moving in fast forward… but if you don’t slow down you are going to miss it… warp speed ahead!
